Several years ago I read a quote by Brene Brown that said, “The magic is in the mess.” My reaction was to scratch my head and ask where?
Where was the magic in the pain? Where was the magic in the anxiety? Where was the magic in pancreatic cancer and watching someone you love die? Where was the magic in two knee surgeries? Where was the damn magic in the hot flashes and all the other things that weren’t going right?
I even penned a blog called, “When You Can’t Find the Magic in the Mess.” Because I couldn’t see past it – the hot mess that was my life, nor could I see past my pessimistic views. I couldn’t see past the trauma of infertility treatment, endometriosis, IVF, a botched epidural, and all the other things that had been so hard to overcome.
Fast forward a few years and quite honestly the landscape looks the same. I still have hot flashes, and live with anxiety, and have more physical pain with my latest knee surgery.
But the one thing that’s changed is my perspective. And when our littlest asked me this week how I was feeling I told her this:
“The magic is everywhere.”
Because it is. I can finally see what brilliant Brene meant when she said the magic is in the mess.
The magic is in the sunrise. It’s in the butterfly emerging from its chrysalis. It’s in our daughter’s smile at me full of love. It’s in the way my husband has cared for me, our house and our girls during this recovery. It’s in the quiet of the morning meditation. It’s in the way I’m finally caring for myself and learned to create boundaries. And it’s in all of us just waiting to be found.
Have things magically changed in my life to see the magic? Nope. The mess is growing exponentially figuratively and physically. But the way I view it is different and that has created even more magic.
Don’t be fooled by what you see in the media you consume or the posts on social media. We all have a big mess somewhere in our lives ranging from a child with special needs to a health crisis or even grief. But if we choose to live in gratitude, and take the time to listen to ourselves and what we need, that’s when the magic comes alive.
The magic is everywhere and it’s a beautiful thing.