Next week is already the last week of school, and I can’t believe my baby is graduating from preschool. I know this may seem silly…but I’m already a sappy, teary eyed, blabbering mommy. I have no idea how I’ll get through the graduation ceremony, especially after I bawled my way through the Mother’s Day performance last week. Seriously, when they started singing “Let it Go” from Frozen I totally lost it!
Why am I so emotional? Maybe I’m just too sensitive. Or maybe it’s because it was completely improbable that I would ever become a mother. I suffered from stage 4 endometriosis, had only one working ovary, had an autoimmune disease attacking my remaining ovary, and needed over 7 years of treatment, acupuncture, and surgeries to conceive. I had several complications during my high risk pregnancy, and Lila was born 5 weeks too soon. I can’t believe we have her in our lives – and I am so extremely thankful for the love she and her sister give me every single day. I literally sit in awe at every school function, so incredibly happy and shocked that I am a mom and able to have these experiences.
Last night she couldn’t sleep and heard me confiding in her dad (in a weepy, sniffling state) how sad I was that preschool was already ending. I mean…kindergarten already?
Lila: “What’s wrong mom?”
Me: “I just wish sometimes that I could keep you little forever.”
Lila: “Mommy, why are you so sad because I’m not a baby anymore? Just be happy of the person I’m growing and being.”
She’s a wonder isn’t she?
|Lila on the left, (age 3) first day of preschool. Lila on the right, (age 5) preschool graduation. (Courtesy: Kim Ruoff)|
With all the perils of motherhood…the sleep deprivation, self sacrifices, work, behavior challenges and all the chaos in between…come these marvelous moments. These life lessons are so precious…what a wonderful reminder.
Lila is right, I do need to focus more on the present and fully engage and enjoy today. I (like most of us) am always consumed with tomorrow, and next week, and the next career step. But how many of us really stop and savor each day?
So I will watch and enjoy every second of her graduation ceremony on Monday, and make the most decadent celebratory cake I can! It’s time to reflect on all she’s accomplished – rather than focus on what we are leaving behind. To all of the moms and dads who may be feeling exactly what I am…may you relish these last few days of preschool…the parties, parades and ceremonies. Take lots of pictures and videos…but don’t forget your tissues. (Sniff, sniff.)
Jessica Allen says
My first baby graduated from preschool today and I’ve been a teary mess all day. Time is just passing by so quickly! Your girls are an extra blessing in your family, I’m sure, with your health struggles. Hugs to you!
Kristen Hewitt says
Thanks Jessica! And congrats to your baby. Don’t think about the first day of Kindergarten yet….
I totally get it! I never thought I would be this way. She has grown up! I had no idea about your endometriosis. I have a friend going through that and I don’t know what to do or say… I’m so glad you have your girls.
Kristen Hewitt says
Right Georgia? It’s happening so fast…good luck to your friend. I’m happy to help if she needs an ear.
Totally with you. I never used to cry. Now that I have kids, oh boy.
I love the idea of making a huge cake!!! I think I am going to do the same!!! I am in awe of your story- your girls ARE total miracles!! What precious gifts. And I love seeing her amazing works of art on Instagram! You’re such an awesome mommy 🙂
Echo A says
I am still trying to figure out where my babies and the time went!
Ahhh, so sweet! When I tell my daughter I wish she’d stay little she tells me “No! I’m BIG!”
It is crazy how quickly they grow up. And how emotional we can be about the whole process!
Rob Layton says
Read about how difficult your pregnancy was and sometimes we should enjoy the small victories in life.
Joey Resciniti says
Kids have a way of cutting right to the truth of the matter. And she’s just adorable in her tiny cap and gown. Congratulations & keep the tissues handy anyway!
“Take lots of pictures and videos” – Time surely flies so being in the moment during these milestones and preserving them with photos and videos is important. Take it from me…mom of two who are turning 20 and 23 in June and July. What’s cool is that as soon as one memorable moment passes you’ll find another in the making soon after.
Congrats on your lovely daughter’s graduation! Wishing you and yours all the best.
IrisM @ The Colored Married Life says
Hi there ! Thank you so much for your sweet comment on my blog ! So I see you’re a super-mom! Any tips or advice for me? (I’m going to be a mom in the next few days! Crazy!!!! 🙂